no. 1 killer

one of my programmate's father was diagnosed with acute leukemia.... and a very famous Canadian celebrity was also diagnosed with another kind of leukemia, CML if i'm not wrong. i just can hardly imagine how this seldomly-heard disease become this popular.

one of my uncles on my father's side had nose cancer around 10 years ago. that was a very hard period of time for his family. he was at the last stage of the cancer and he chose not to proceed with chemotherapy because it would be no use and a waste of money. his condition worsened and worsened until he lost all the memories about us, his family, his friends....

maybe i've read too many love stories, i just can't imagine how people can bear with being forgotten by the most loved one. i'm sure my aunty-in-law must be very depressed, to witness the whole process of he losing memories of everything, including herself and himself. the one who's forgetting isn't really suffering. it is the one who's being forgotten suffered most.

cancer, which is a rarely heard disease 50 years ago, how did it grab its ground and infiltrate into so many people's lives... my shallow understanding is, using big words and big concepts, mankind is to be blamed. if the air and water are not polluted, if the trees are not cut down, if fewer non-disintegratable materials are produced, everything could be better.

mankind, worst and best thing God has ever created.