Starting tmr

i'll start working for my prof tmr. last time i mentioned that something unpleasant happened days before my exams. what i meant was i didn't get the funding my prof wanted me to apply, then he got pissed off and reluctant to take me for the summer research and the 4th year project. in the end he agreed to have me in his lab for summer only. anyway that's better than none, i should still be grateful to him. that's why i dread so much for tmr... i don't know what's waiting for me. but i'm sure i'll have to work extra hard to prove to him my capability. altho today's the last day for me to enjoy freedom, i'll still have to do some preparation work for tmr. i'll be working on RavA, gonna search pubmed for articles related.

sometimes i think, i don't want to have kids after i get married. i don't enjoy life right now, and i don't think i have really enjoyed life before. when i think that my daughter or son may have to follow my footsteps, facing the same problems i'm having now and making decisions every once a while, what a painstaking life it would be. life is like an imprisonment, i'm restricted in everyway. i'm a lazy person, sometimes i'm just too lazy to think of anything. i wish someone can plan my life out for me and what i need do is just to follow the plans. isn't that easy.

i moved to my new room yesterday. the room is facing north, the direction i like the least since i'll never be able to see the warm sunlight in my room for the whole summer. but that may not be a bad thing cos toronto can be very hot in this season.