stressed

my bf said to me days ago: "i'd rather you slack at home doing nothing, than you get so stressed and turn everything to me."

i have to admit that i really suck at dealing with stress T_T. i seriously began to work but i'm so worried about and overwhelmed by everything. i've begun grad school applications, and so far i'm still left with one more referee. i don't know anybody to ask. i got to figure it out before end of december.

here's what i've to do in january:
finish letters of intent;
book slots in new college writing center and career center to correct the letters;
finish up and send away all the application packages;
begin to talk to profs in diff departments, asking about possible positions in the lab;
start volunteering;
revise BCH471;
continue job searching;
continue with BCH473

my goodness... life's so shitty. no choice, i have to go on.