MGY essay

slept at 5 this morning, trying to finish mgy essay before the appointment i booked with new college writing centre. i don't want to go empty-handed. it's necessary that i fully utilise the 1 hour in the morning. i don't want to get up so early just for nothing. so i'm feeling damn dizzy now. i was trying to take a nap at noon, yet i tossed and turned on my bed, couldn't shut off my brain for a while. i had this kind of experience before that i couldn't fall asleep even tho i'm dog-tired.

so many ppl didn't come for bch340 today. i was wondering maybe some have dropped this course since the test on monday's really scaring ppl away. or they might be working hard on mgy essay as well. i'm quite sure that i must be among the first few who have finished the essay already by far. i just need to do some more edition. wash was asking me what motivation drives me to finish the essay. to be honest i didn't really feel an adversity or willingness in starting the topic, i just felt that it's not good for me to go and see an essay writing councellor with nothing prepared beforehand. that just doesn't look great. even i couldn't finish it, i should bring with me a decent length of paragraphs. that may be counted as my motivation. it may not be the right type of motivation, but it's motivation anyway.

wash was saying it's not good to rush the essay like this, since the quality may be affected. i agree. it may be harder to revise it since i've already fall in the trap of fixed styles of writing, paraphrasing and language composition. my thinking process is much restricted once there is a cap put on it. it's just like the monkey king's headring. haha, what a metaphor. i'm sure it'll be better if one already has something to say in mind and writing would be the final process to verbalize his thinking. but i just couldn't manage to do it. it's a compromise, i have my essay looked over by a professional anyway. gonna nap a bit.

p.s. msn8.0 is upgraded again. i like the outlook quite much, better than the original 8.0 skin.